Scroll down the side of my blog? See that button there? Yes, the BlogHer one? I’m going to Chicago at the end of July on my very own to see if I can hang out with some alpha bloggers without curling into a fetal position after admitting, “Yes, I still use a WordPress template.”
I’m terrified. This will be the first piece of live-action travel that I have ever planned by myself.
[Okay. That’s a lie. There was an ill-advised train trip to California that I won’t really talk about because people should have told me that I should have used a damn plane. I will say though that it is a fine place to study some of the lower echelons of the human condition. E.g., You there – 35 year-old man named Jeb, get off the phone with your mother. What can more can you tell her at 1 AM when you’re on a train? Oh wait – I know! Because I can HEAR YOU!]
But this time, it will be in a city where I do not know anyone. No one will pick me up from the airport. I’ll have to figure out how to ride in a cab by myself and while being sober. I’ve reserved my place at the conference and have reservations at the hostel. I do not have a flight yet. Any tips?
My parents are going to flip fifteen different lids once they find out about this. And this secrecy, this timid wash of not feeling like I can be open with them, is horrible. There are circumstances beyond their control that they are dealing with and I feel that I’m being the ungrateful daughter again for planning something that reeks so much of life and of brash living. I also feel like I’m having a hard time becoming an adult when so much of is contingent upon their situation and their wishes. Above all, I’m just feeling guilty for wanting to become an adult, to take actions as such, but feeling annoyed by being hampered by what really isn’t their fault either. I’m a horrible kid.
Also, much less interesting but more resume worthy, is that I got accepted to present at another conference next October. I told D that above all else, I need to buy new shoes for this:
The Western States Rhetoric and Literacy Conference is pleased to inform you that your proposed presentation, The Ethos of Blogging: Strategies for Sustaining Readers, has been accepted for inclusion in the 2007 program for, Sustainability, at Arizona State University, Tempe, October 25-27.
Oh snap! [But really. Doesn’t that sound “new shoes” worthy? I think so.]
Meaning that I, um, have to become an authority on blogging super quick. So if my parents ask, I can tell them Chicago is research.